Coz I'm hurting inside, all the tears I can't hide...

Now, i really just wanna burden myself with crap aka feasib and school stuff. Just so I can forget the world I used to love. You know...that moving on crap thingy. Hey that's what I did when Loi and I broke up! Oh well, it just hurts that this has to happen. I really thought that we can talk this shit out given that we have a deep solid friendship...guess it isn't gonna happen. dba dapat mas okay pag magkaibigan kasi mas madaling magusap? Sana we could just talk even as friends. Pero mas okay as work-buddies eh. So we can fake it and look professional whatever happens. Haay. For now, I see where I stand now. and I'm standing by my principles. For Goodness sake, we're friends! *&^%$#@. Can't we talk about this in a civilized manner? Fine. But whatever happens, I'm keeping my rationality in tact...

I'm beginning to hate every second that I see you...Mas okay pag hindi kita nakikita eh...coz when i see you, I only see a hurt friendship.

We don't need to find a set-up where someone wins and someone loses.



Feasib? Let's get it on! I'm ready. Thanks to my laptop..c/o tita glenda.

congrats to STRATEGIZE!

haay! i'm so relieved! tapos na rin ang STRATEGIZE! Humble it was, but successful in its own right. Now i can focus on the more important thing...FEASIB!!! oh yeah. grabe i'm just sooo happy right now. and i'm ever so proud of my project heads ed and lau. they're the best team i can ever have. HAKUNAMATATA it is and...JIT! talk about printing the certificates and name tags on the spot!

Everything was unexpected. Few abamers, a lot of non-abamers! overflowing food...and good lectures from the speakers! oh yeah.grabe, sir benpaul was really supportive! To all who helped to make STRATEGIZE possible, thank you! Jill, Pangga, my labs JP, Jego (but of course!sobra sobrang help), Mer, Marice(sooooper!), Mark, Jem and Camz, Cyph, Cindy Shayne(love you dear!), Gabby, Cocoy, and Paul...I'm deeply indebted to you guys. Special mention to Janna Garcia, to the undying support! You're one great friend =) mmmmmwah! tska nga pala si Ate Nelia! and the janitors! And ate Ida! wow...really cooperative! Also to Ping (congrats to the Project Management Seminar of JMA, it was also a success!) haay.

Thank you po! sadly, there's still something bothering me. And it hurts me like hell. And im gonna fix this..No matter how much it will hurt me or him.

Anyways, FEASIB mode na! oh yeah!

beware. sharp curve ahead.

silence is a bad sign.

Righteousness is entirely different from rationality.

you see...i should be listening!!! He's been right all along!!! and to make matters worse, he's been proving himself as days go by without him talking about it. and when i bring it up, it always seems like he's slapping me on the face, and a hard one for that. He is right. But righteousness isn't the principle to hold on to now. Not when everything around me seems absurdly..hmm..righteous.

but i won't do it. Not for myself but for hell's sake. *&!#$2*

but he has taught me rationality. He wants me to learn that by all means. Even this young fellow, who seems to feel and see nothing, teaches me the meaning of that freakin important word - surprisingly, and in a very apt time and manner. For that, he's proven himself as a heaven-sent.

But I don't know what happened to this very principled person. Hmm. It could have been ended in a good conversation - which i believe to be a very civilized and professional manner, don't you agree? - But hey, these are emotions. And as I have proven, emotions are the wicks of your rationality's downfall.

Now, if i can't follow that righteous advice he has been spitting on my face all these time, then all i can do is hold on to rationality, tighter and tighter each and everyday. For in the long run, it will eventually be righteousness.

dear blog...

hi blog,

i wanna say sorry...coz for now, i found my new bestfriend in the form of my organizer.

well you see, you're quite expensive to maintain! and not to mention time-consuming. for one thing, i still have to connect via the internet just to be with you! Compared to my handy-dandy organizer, which i can carry almost anywhere i go! She has become my personal secretary reminding me who to text and who to call and what to do and who to meet and what to watch on tv and what not!

Fret not my dear blog, i will still be here for you, but not that often anymore...You're also special to me, u see, my organizer doesn't contain my emotions and senseless outbursts like you do.

so there...ill be back...soon i hope.

how are you?

hi blog! how are you? sorry if i'm 'missing in action' lately. i'll try to keep you updated about my trashy life soon...pag hindi na ko busy. just wanna say i miss the split side...the bum life...and the peaceful life.

Christmas vacation 2005

oblation run
lantern parade
feasib survey
simbang gabi
divisoria trip
reunion at greenbelt
cyto reunion at atc - tsk tsk..
50firstdates
friday's
tacos and tomato-and-basil-sauced pasta
ako legal wife
world pyro olympics
nagmmarket pa rin...huhuhu
and chubbier than ever.