i still believe in everafter with you..whoa..yeah!

sooooper bored!

you know what, i feel bad...kasi naman eh, gusto kong sumayaw para sa bacbacan..as in! kaso hindi ko kaya..i mean the time constraints...coz as we all know, no one can argue against feasib. as much as i don't want to, im now making 'feasib' as an excuse to everything...now i know how my blockmates felt last semester.

i had a really fun time at abscbn yesterday! well minus the tampo i had coz jp didn't come. super tampo talaga. super. it could have been more than happy...oh well...guess he wasn't meant to see nikki gil in person..nyahaha!

tiki is singing the old-mcdonald-had-a-farm-and-on-his-farm-he-had-some-ig song. wait till james finishes learning it in the piano, and we'll sing it all together.

pangkoy just took the LAE. oh well, i've always believed that he'll pass that freakin' test and go to that freakin' law school. tapos hindi pala eh noh?! hahaha.. no really, i know he'll make it.

and brandwars? oh yeah. brandwars. would you believe that i did the exec summary 45mins (or maybe less) from the deadline. goodness. as in JIT talaga..talk about praticing the stuff i learned from sir galang..hehehe..or did i learn that from him..not! i'm not expecting to win, but it would be really nice to see singapore with my bestfriend, wouldn't it? =)

grabe, 5 tulog na lang before the big day! oh yeah.

hakunamatata!

if you're one of those who regularly and tirelessly read my wailings, you should have had an impression that I was really in deep shit this past few weeks. and to think that the only venue for me to blurt all those qualms out is here in my blog, it's kinda contradicting now to have named this blog hakunamatata - hey, after all, it means no worries and it's a problem-free philosophy! (now i'm thinking of renaming it anger management or stress reliever)

Lately I've been worrying too much - enough for me to experience pimplebeakouts and sleepless nights. and so, from now on, i shall live by my favorite motto...again...and live happily and peacefully, just as i deserve it.

haay...

haay.. i really can't express my feelings now. i'm shouting..but no one hears me.

ecstacy...ecstano..

okay, pictorial ng execore ngayon! ayun lang. and we havent got any theme yet. so goodluck, project galore na lang...

haay...im excited for:
1. sunday - im gonna see sam milby! omg!!! and echo, and anne, and toni, and kuh?! haha
2.my birthday - 10 days to go! grabe ngayon pa lang hindi na ko makatulog!
3. christmas - my fave time of the year...32 days left!
4. our feasib - go w.i.t.!
5. to go home? hehe sa las pinas...i miss that damn place!
6. bacbacan2 - oh yeah...basketball player yata toh! nyahahaha!

hindi naman ako masyadong excited noh?

anyways, late na ko sa pictorial namin!

it's your smile, your face, your lips that i miss...

romantic mood...since this afternoon...

okay.... who wouldn't be lovestruck if a bunch of guys in their formal attire serenade you with lovesongs and give you roses...aaah...the words of a hopeless romantic =)

and you know what, i cant get over the feeling! as jf would aptly say it, "nakakamiss ang feeling ng inlove!" haay...

walang magawa

wala akong magawa...7am yung first class ko ngayon tapos 1pm na yung sunod...oha san ka pa? dapat my gagawin ako sa free time ko eh..magmmeet sana kami ni francis para pagusapan ang brandwars...yep, napagtripan naming sumali...kaso canceled, bukas na lang daw. anyway, kakagising ko lang at masakit ang likod ko...apparently, jen, ate and I took a nap at the tambayan to kill the time and having nowhere to lie down, i slept at the benches. yung matigas..e kasi naman inangkin nila yung couch. oh well..

birthday ni james bukas! je-hames, james.

excited na ko umuwi!

im soo happy, btw, sa gradpics ko! i got the pose i wanted! and praise God I got a nicer guitar thanks to i.c. =) it was a nice experience...grabe naabuso ko yata si kuya photographer! ako na yata ang may pinkamaraming creative shots to date.tapos pati yung makeup artist natuwa yata sakin (gandang ganda siya sa mga mata ko at eyelashes) kaya naman kinareer nya ang make up ko...nasobrahan yata ako sa kagandahan!

37 days before christmas....and.....15days before my birthday! yeba!

go feasib! let's do this!

it's just emotions...

oooh. mixed emotions!


tired. because i walked a lot today.

hungry. haven't eaten since lunch! tsk bad.

scared. hmm..basta nervous pala.

excited! gonna join P&G brand wars with my bestfriend. and, i now have lots of ideas for our feasib...and entrep! ill get a henna tom, and a mani-pedi probably =) wow pampering =)

inspired. like never before =)

happy. coz it has been a happy day! and i have a room mate na! hehe..

mad. still.

confused. daming looks and smiles and words with meaning eh...hmm...

sleepy. na.

true enough.

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exhaust

grabe itong araw na ito!hindi ako kumain. cereal lang. pinapak ko lang kasi hindi pa malamig yung milk. tapos hindi ako naglunch. actually naglunch naman pero fishball lang. wala na kong pera eh. and God knows why.

haay..i wanna blurt it out! gusto kong maglabas ng sama ng loob. hindi ko malabas sa execore kasi alam naman na nila yon. at i doubt kung maiintindihan nila without bias. what i need most now is an unbiased opinion. ayokong sabihin sa members. bawal. execore stuff. well pwede naman sa ibang mems na hindi chikadora, pero nakakahiya. and i doubt na wala rin silang bias. hindi pwede sa highschool berks..hmm, hindi nila magegets! tska minsan na nga lang magkikita, probs pa ang ikkwento ko! at lalong hindi pwde kay francis. not now. actually alam niya (i know, he understands me beyond my words.), hindi lang muna kami nagkikibuan kasi complicated pa ang mga bagay.

ayoko nang magalit. nakakapagod eh. mahirap makatulog pag galit. serious. ang masama pa jan hindi ko alam kung sino ang sisisihin. ang hirap para sakin kasi ang ugali ko parang sponge - absorb lang ng absorb. so at the end of it all. i'm left with everything, but no one's within my reach. kaya pag piniga ko, iaabsorb ko lang din. nothing happened. may pagka plastik din ako eh. gusto ko nang sumabog pero bawal eh. bawal ang explosives sa BA. (nye!) kailangan everything should seem ok, so everything will be ok. martyr ba? pero job ko yun eh. ano bang magagawa ko. pointless ang magalit. hindi rin naman tinatablan eh.

sana man lang may mga delikadesa ang mga tao. yan ang tinuro sakin ng mga magulang ko. kailangan maayos kang kausap. kung problema mo, harapin mo. pero badtrip, masyado kasi akong tinuruan ng humility. ayan tuloy, ako ang nahihirapan ngayon.

siguro masama rin yung lagi kang mukang matapang sa labas...kasi ikaw lagi ang sinasandalan. ikaw lagi ang inaasahan. pero bakit ganon, pag gusto ko nang magpahinga, wala naman akong masandalan.

sana bago sa birthday ko maayos na ito. maraming naapektuhan. hindi lang nila alam na naaapektuhan na sila. yun ang masama don. haay.

minsan iniisip ko tuloy kung mali ba ang nasalihan kong org, o mali ba na nagorg pa ko, o mali ba na nagofficer pa ko...haay...ewan. magulo isip ko. pagod na kasi ako. ang sarap sumuko pero bawal. hindi ganito ang hanap ko sa isang org.

hindi ako nagorg para hindi kumain ng buong araw, o para magaway kami ng bestfriend ko, o para hindi ko mabigay sa sarili ko ang mga gusto ko. (i guess hindi ko na talaga mabibili yung chucks na pinaka aasam ko. wala akong regalo sa sarili ko?! badtrip nga eh, nakita ko pa siya sa shop pagkadaan ko sa mall) badtrip, yung pinagiipunan ko, hindi ko man lang nagamit para sa sarili ko. san ka pa.

but at the end of it all, whatever happens, wala silang marereklamo sakin. subukan lang nilang manumbat. subukan lang nila. baka ipako ko sila sa krus. i know that I did everything i can - even living for a day with only a few coins in my pocket just enough for my fare to las pinas. yung tipong pag nahulugan ako ng piso, hindi na ko makakauwi. kaya wala silang karapatan magsalita. kahit patalikod. kahit sa harap ko. kahit subok lang, wala. wala na ngang natira sakin eh. pera, oras, kaibigan, bestfriend, at tiwala - the last being the most important. seriously, nakakawalang gana magtrabaho kapag yung mga tao sa paligid laging nananaksak sa likod. mahirap! haaaaaaay. but i chose to experience all of this. now i regret it.

haay. matutulog na lang ako. magpapakapagod bukas, at sa susunod...yung tipong mamamanhid na lang ako.

missin' blog

haha! i just miss it here.

balik school nanaman! happy coz i love being in class and being in school. (i looooooove my school!) sad coz here comes stress, again. and i mean the grabe-iest of all stress. well because here comes feasib! oh yeah. just the subject alone mortifies me. what more being actually enrolled in it and doing the REAL feasib...grrr.. sad again coz in less than 5 months, ill be leaving my alma mater, that includes my occupation for almost 17 years now (being a student, that is...), my ABAM fam, my friends, and God knows who.

anyways, un lang.

and oh im excited for my gradpic photoshoot. go rockerchick!

sembreak memories

oh yeah! namiss ko magsulat este magtype dito! hehe

damig kwento! can't wait!

ang saya ng sembreak...kain tulog tv! oh yeah! pero kiddin aside, daming memories! oct31, nagpunta kami ni kuya bing at tiki sa dangwa para mamili ng flowers para kay lolo. ay grabe. as in ang daming tao at grabidad din ang putik! quoting kuya bing "haggard talaga as in capital 'ha' at jabbar na talaga as in capital 'ja'" nyahaha! pero enjoy! kasi nakakawala ng pagod tignan yung flowers. ok na business un ah..hmmm =)

nov1. punta ng laguna. at ako pa rin ang drayber! at dahil trapik sa losbanos, san ka pa, dun kami dumaan sa mt makiling..as in sa bundok ha! yung tipong baguio ang daan sa pagka zigzag...ay grabe...hindi nga ako makahinga sa pagddrive sa sobrang kaba! as in yung bangin kitang kita sa gilid ng van...whew! eto buhay pa naman.. =) at sympre ang labas non ay sa UPLB! oh yeah! i miss my old school! ooooh the memories...

tapos sa sementeryo, masya! cympre as always...para ngang party pag nandun eh...at parang eating contest din...ay grabe talaga maghanda ang lola! sobrang dami...tumaba talaga ako no doubt. lalo na si cindy pig bwahahaha! pero saludo talaga ko kay lola...saaaaaraaap! yum! as in kaim talaga to death dahil pauwi, nagstop over pa sa kfc sa south super high...ay grabe...sabi ko nga may customers na yung restaurant ko eh! at may chef na ko...hehe

pero ang da best mem from that day (and the best this sembreak) is yung pagdalaw namin kay manang clara - the person who raised me up from birth (actualy from 3mos old). oha! hmm ang sad kasi nastroke siya thats why she cant move the left part of her entire body. imagine 77years old na siya..as in grabe yung papunta sa haus nila. taga looban kasi sila. (sa sta cruz laguna) eh ang looban, year round na baha doon! kaya naman todo tawid sa tulay ang ginawa namin. scary si kit, parang hindi siya kakayanin ng mga tulay!hehe..pero haay...i feel helpless...and hopeless...want to help pero walang magawa...*writes to wish ko lang*. haay. prayers... *dear God*

at ngayon, kakauwi lang namin from the batangas trip! ang lola at lola naman sa father side ang dinalaw...whew! at what's new? ako pa rin ang drayber...grabe 3hours straight akong nagddrive! pero cympre pauwi si dad na...st san ka pa, si kit na ang nagdrive sa star highway...may future! may future drayber na ko! yehey!

ang da best part ay...kumain kami ng bulalo sa banay-banay! yum! as in yum! matagal na kong naglilihi sa bulalo eh...matagaltagal na kong hindi nakakain non. kaya naman lamon to death naman! patay...jogging to death din ito bukas...hehehe

lapit na birthday ko! hurrah!! (as james would pronounce it...hu-ra!) pero sympre si james muna...oh yeah! cant wait to buy that gift for myself!!!! hurrah!

i miss this person..hmm..eh kasi naman eh! minsan lang magparamdam...naman...mapride din kasi ako...*batok to myself* ayaw ko rin magparamdam! hehe...sige patigasan.

i really cant believe na hanggang ngayon wala pa rin akong load. nagkaload nga ko nung isang araw, naubos naman kakatxt sa mktg babies ko..hehe...=) as in once lang ako nagload this sembreak.