bored.

haay. boring! kamusta naman kasi, ako lang dito sa bahay. mom and dad went to the hospital to visit a friend. si kit may halloween-slash-debut party. si james na kanila luigi, as usual. si manang busy sa pagplantsa.ayan walang makausap, blog na lang muna. ayaw ko rin kasi lumabas. ayokong gumasta...hmm im kinda saving up for sumthin =)

eto, upload na lang ulit ng pix!dammit...ang hilig ko kasi kumuha ng pix, pero tinatamad ako iupload! ang tagal kasi eh!

hmm. nagjogging kami ni ma kanina. tinanong ko sakanya kung disappointed siya sa globe thingy...oh well, hindi naman daw. at sympre, words of encouragement ang sumunod...hmmkinda touching..a nice talk at the park.

marunong na magdrive si kit!!! yehey! may drayber na ang dakilang drayber (that's me!) oh yeah! kit, pagdrive mo nga ko sa atc. dali.

hoy friends, testimonials ko para sa yearbook ha!

im still not over with what happened at globe. hmm. kahit na alam kong tama si ma, and tralaga namang hindi ako para don. (sounds bitter ba?) no really, no it's crystal clear that i don't want too corporate-y. kaya naman, magaartista na ko! yuck kadiri joke lang. hmm gonna find a way to enter the advertising world...hmmm...or the food industry...hmm...or the piggery business...hmmactually marami pa rin akong iniisip na gustong career paths, i'm just thankful that i know where i don't want to land. ewan ko kung bakit ayaw ko ng corporate...hmm ayaw ko kasi ng soooper competitive environment, it just doesn't bring out the best in me, hindi kaya nakaka inspire! tapos the people are grudgy, old looking pa..hindi friendly, parang ang daming problem sa life! hmm i wanna work where i can be myself, where i wouldn't be pressured to be someone else.

im excited to graduate..hindi pa pala...hmm..i hate this tpoic. next...

binati ako ni allan kanina, yung kapitbahay-slash-kababata ko, after 98 years. hmm. wala lang naalala ko lang.

i miss someone today. ewan ko ba dun. parang insensitive. noh?

o zsazsa padilla...till the next entry!

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kinda disappointed today.

i woke up at the wrong side of the bed. hmm. somehow i knew i won't make it. hehe, hindi nga ko nakuha. steeg noh.

i'm disappointed not because I failed to be part of the conference but because I failed my parents. hmm.i know they were expecting.

I was actually doing it for my parents, not for myself. I knew that it wasn't for me-that i don't like that kind of career. But then what can i do. excited na silang magtrabaho ako eh! mas ecited pa sakin. oooh, the pressure.

oh well. I'm not meant for that. But hey, that's my 'sign', my divine intervention. i knew it. Corporate life isn't for me. Entrep here i come!

But still i'm dissapointed. i hate the feeling of failure. But i hate it more that I failed other people and made them disappointed too.

Ok lang kung ako lang eh, noh? pero cympre, maraming expectations eh.

uhm

dami kong gustong isulat. kaso tinatamad ako!

masaya ako kasi tapos na plansem.

masaya ako kasi maganda ako nung kasal ni ate cindz, at masaya ako para sakanya.

masaya ako dahil masaya yung retreat ko nung sat-sun.

masaya ako dahil...

haay...nakakatamad, pagod ako ngayon eh =)

okay...alright...

so okay...we'll push through with the planning sem...an 'execore planning sem' whew...okay alright...it seems that we're all just putting up a plansem just because we are obliged to and not for the need of it. like pangga said, seems like we're all just trying to actualize it. okay.

i'm still speechless with what's happening now. i don't know why we hafta end up with a lot of mess. sabi namin sa mga sarili namin, babawi kaming lahat sa second sem, pero whew...it looks like we're starting all fucked up. and it doesn't look nice, and feel nice either, at least for me. what makes me feel worse is that i really don't know who's to blame. i don't know if it's totally her fault or our fault. hmm..talk about being a team. and talk about passionate professionalism.

oh well. like i said. i've never been mad like this. hmm..but i'm cooling off right now. at least, there are people i know who are willing to listen, and the good thing is that it really won't seem that i'm tugging them to take a side or give their sympathy to me or to the other party. They're just there to listen. I really needed an unbiased opinion. and i think that's what true friends do.

oh well, let's get on with the plansem. But I really won't let this anger pass. I'm not very vocal with my feelings, but this time ill be different. This is professionalism. and if this is what it takes to save us from damnation, then so be it.

I can forgive. But i can never forget. Francis and I have always believed in this.

okay...alright...let's get on with it. This is gonna be MADUGO - physically, intellectually, psychologically, and emotionally. especially for my labs...who had a terrible day yesterday. Sometimes, you just hafta let go.

haay plansem. haay orglife. haay sembreak.

too bad i won't be there in my sister's birthday.

argh.

wala akong masabi. as in. panalo. no one has ever made me this mad.

sometimes you just hafta let go of your obligations and hold on to your principles.

pero i was able to sleep soundly last night. thanks to the inspiring words of my labs JP and my dear Jego.

im still speechless..i mean, im out of words.

burned-out passion

that's right. i'm not so passionate anymore.minsan may mga pangyayaring nakakayamot talaga.

this time she pushed it too far. enough for me to loathe her more.

mapagpasensya ako pero iba talag angayon.

haay plan sem...

ay grabe, plansem nanaman! argh...the horror! hehe parang takot na takot noh? hehe..medyo nakikita ko na kasi na magiging madugo ito. as in MADUGO. that's why i'm packing mephenamic tablets on my firstaid kit just so im ready when my headaches attack. argh.

ginagawa ko pa nga lang yung marketing kit ngayon, ang sakit na sa ulo!

oh well. looking forward to a more marketable sem for abam.=)

and though i feel soooo haggard about the upcoming plansem, i'm still soooper excited to go there..well, to swim, and to sing, and to play billiards, and to just bond with the peeps.

uuuy, addict na!

harharhar! would you believe that i'm getting the hang of this? i wasn;t supposed to write here today, pero kasi ang tagal magupload ng photos sa online album...kaya blog muna.

pagod ako ngayon...pero masaya...we went to binondo(actually divisoria)..me, tiki, mom, lola, tita nene, kuya bing, ate mika, and ate cindy para lang magshopping. planned shopping trip kaya toh! as in 2weeks in the making! hehe. at san ka pa, ayaw sumama ni dad kaya ako ang driver! imagine, ako ang nagdrive sa binondo, eh sobrang sikip at sobrang hirap ng parking don! but i survived. ako pa. hustler drayber yata toh. ay grabe...dami kong nabili! namulubi yata si mama (with coño accent). at kamusta naman si lola, akalain mong nawala! ang adik din kasi sa shopping, humiwalay na lang bigla, tas ayun nawala. don't worry, natagpuan din naman namin siya, after naming maghiwahiwalay at tubuan ng ugat ang aming mga legs. anyways, lahat kami ay umuwi ng masaya dahil nabili namin lahat ng aming gustong bilihin...lalo na si tiki.

bukas exam sa 105. oh yeah.

i'm still inspired. =)

oh yeah!

can't believe that I did have a blog! hehe..i totally orgot about this one =)

oh well. let's get on with it..

i was inspired to write here in my blog. Sabi kasi nina jf, jego, at jenny, masarap magsulat..and mas masarap ang feeling kapag babalikan ko na =) so eto..hmm..wala naman akong masulat..hindi rin naman kasi ako palasulat. tamad lang kasi ako...
kinda tired today. lumabas na talaga lahat ng pagod ko from this sem. ay grabe..ay grabe talaga...daming emotional fatigue, financial problems, at just plain physical stress.hmm..tska daming utos ni ma! as in...sa katunayan, kami ay naglinis ng buong bahay..o san ka pa? sabay nagtayo ng christmas tree at iba pang dekorasyon para sa pasko. oha! pasko na dito sa amin! lapit na ng birthday ko...naku line of 2 na ang age ko..huhuhu...

pero kahit pagod, sobrang saya ko!!!! bukod sa sembreak na, makakapanood na ulit ako ng tv! oh yeah! eto pa, binigyan ako ng 10tickets ni lisa, yung dj ng campusradio, para dun sa anniv concert ng lsfm..o san ka pa? at sabihin ko lang daw kung kulang pa..aba, mabigyan nga ang buong abam! hehe..a kamusta naman, hindi rin naman ako makakapunta kasi retreat namin yun sa laguna..hmm...sayang!!!!!!!! sayang talaga!!!!!!!! andun pa naman si bamboo (*hi to astroboi!) oh well...cympre si lord muna =) tapos basta, im just soooooooooo inspired today. (*hi ate KC!) oha.

mamaya, pupunta ako sa bahay ng pinsan ko, isusukat ko na yung damit ko for her wedding. abay ako eh..at san ka pa...host din ako!!! anu ba yan?! pinagtripan nanaman ako ni kuya bing.
oh well..ayun lang, madami pa sana akong pwedeng isulat...kaso tinatamad tlga ako...tska kanina pa ko tinatatawag ni ma...share daw kami sa gabi. peyborit nya un eh.